this is how it is,
so, i have been dealing with depression lately. because i just remembered that i used to get molested by my brother. butt he isnt my brother anymore family doesnt do that to eachother! he can go and die for all i care! i honestly wouldnt care. and my mom and dad wont let me see my mother! it pisses me off, they have no idea how bad i feal because i just go on with my day and i feal like i am not wanted or i dont matter! my life is the hugest dissapointment i have ever known! all i want to do is see my mother and my brother as i wish for. it breaks my heart and pisses me off so bad NO ONE knows. for all i know she can be the coolest person ever! and it might help me with depression. butt if she is a bad person and it is just another dissapointment then i have a doctor that can up my dose and i have a councler that can help me through things! I think about it everyday. it dissapoints me so much. an i know that they can find her they just chose not to!whatever they can just go on living there life butt i cant.not until i can see her. i hope that they read this.
